Wednesday, 1 July 2009

Please Read

I hate it when other people lose weight. Not you girls obviously, we are all in this together. But other people I know.. Maybe its an attention thing, although I hate to admit that. The same people who used to tell me how thin I was getting, and who worried about me, now comment on how thin other people are, and worry about them instead. I havent been told I have lost weight in so long and I miss it. I have let myself slip and suddenly some people I know have caught up with me and its like, wait, no, this is wrong. I need to be thinner. I need the attention. Im not the best at anything. Nothing. I was good at losing weight, it was something I could do before I fucked up, like I fuck everything else up. I want to be the thinnest. Is this wrong? :(


  1. I don't think it's wrong for you to be the best at something and I understand how you feel jealous. I think we all feel jealous when we are constantly praised about things we do (or at least get comments) and then suddenly see all that attention diverted elsewhere. My husband, for example, has a lot of friends who are in the same "line of work" as I am and it drives me crazy when he tells me about how they are the best at what they do and I am like "What about me?!" But it's not that he is saying I'm not the best, you know? The truth is that there is always going to be someone better (thinner) at something than you are, BUT there is always going to be someone you are better (or thinner) than. Like me - you are WAY better at losing weight than I am. You are amazing! Don't beat yourself up over feeling jealous, it's natural.

  2. Oh, and there is also NOTHING wrong with wanting to be the thinnest. I think we all want that here :(

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  4. i know how you feel... i have similar problem
    i hate whenever my frds tell me they've lost weight
    i hate goin out with frds who constantly suggest that they're getting thinner or thinner than me...

  5. Not at all. I was basking in the glow of everyone telling me how much weight I lost, until I saw this girl from my neighborhood who is so thin it broke my heart. Even though no one really commented on it, it was like a slap in the face for me to realize that I'm basking in the glow of b___s___t weight loss, when this girl is the real triumphant one!

  6. i wish i was basking in that glow..
    my bodyframe is so hard to tell if i lose any weight unless i lose a bunch.
    and i cant even lose a little.
    (if youre a follower, youll see my post later)
    but i know what you mean.
    i hate it when im with people or my boyfriend or at the pool and i see girls prettier or thinner than me.. my bf doesnt look. but its like, i wish i looked like that. -sigh-
    just keep up the good work! it will be alright!

  7. Thanks everyone, at least its not only me. Its such a powerful emotion its like i cant deal with other people losing weight :/ I want it to be me lol.. selfish i guess :/ Jealous?? I dont know......

  8. Well since 99% of people gain it back, you only confirm your superiority by keeping it off!