Tuesday, 15 September 2009

So yesterday I binged like crazy. Rice pudding, cake, biscuits, shortbread... I am so bloated and swollen today and just downed half a litre of diet coke to stop myself getting on the scales. I hate this :(

I had a message from a friend today that upset me. I havent been out of bed long, Ive been so tired and down and its so much easier to sleep and forget everything. This isnt a good path to be on, its a slippery slope and i need to get a grip before im well and truly depressed again. Anyway, I kinda knew this message was going to come but it still upset me, and so ive been crying pretty much since waking up.

Im fat and a mess and everything just seems to have plummetted (except my bloody weight grr). So yeah, Im feeling pretty down and a wreck today :(

Useless, pathetic, FAT.


  1. i'm sorry you feel so down, sweetie. just remember, nothing is forever and you just have to push through this sadness. i know it's easier said than done but i promise things will get better.


  2. Hello, found you on the blog circuit. Sorry I caught you as such a down time. Just rememebr that each of us has the power to fight, but there's nothing wrong with getting a little help from friends.

    (By the way, the "hole in my heart" quote is one of my favorites.)

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  4. Ditto what Yum said. I think you might find my blog interesting too based on this last post. At least "food" for thought, for lack of a better phrase. Let me know what you think. xoxo -Kate

  5. I'm sorry, and whatever this person did, or said, they aren't worth you time when they make you that upset.
    I am new to this site, and I would love it for you to follow me (: