Weheyyy Im down half a lb. Amazing as I ate so much yesterday, and the lax still havent kicked in grr. I havent been able to work out today either, but intake so far is zero. Im going over my friends later... hopefully get away with not much..

Today is hard.

I havent been able to work out cos my dad isnt at work at the moment.

I have gone over my calories.

Ive had:
a boiled egg (70)
a piece of toast (130)
a rice cake (50)
yoghurt (95)
bowl of cereal (250 at least)

Thats approx. 595 cals!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arrgh :(

I am so hungry today, even though I have eaten loads all I want to do is eat. And ive drunk litres and litres of water and it just isnt helping :(

I really hope I havent gained and that I dont feel like this again tomorrow its unbearable!

Ive taken some laxatives, I hope they kick in soon and get some of this shit out of my body.

NO CEREAL. NO BREAD. Wtf am I playing at?! Grr.....

My posts are getting further and fewer between. Never a good sign eh.

BUT despite my difficulties over the past week, I am back on the wagon. However far I fall, I ALWAYS climb back on.

So yesterday I had 500 cals and today Ive had 300 cals + burned 178 on the treadmill.

I am sooooooo hungry tonight though, which is no fun :( lol. But I have to just think how good I will feel when the scales read less tomorrow!!!

Today I am 133lbs (yet again... never again!!!!!!!!!)

How are all you girls doing?

Aargh I have done so much exercise this weekend and I am 131.5lbs !!!! grrrrrrrrrrrr. Why cant I lose this weight?!!!! Im starting abc again today. So far ive had 400 cals.

Today is going good. Intake: a few grapes. I didnt think I would get to work out cos my dad is home but he went out to the shop and I managed to fit in 20mins on the treadmill burning 180 cals :) Also, I am happy today because my jeans fit (they dont fit everyday lol, and havent for a long time now...) Im a little worried about chinese food later, but I will try to be strong!!!!!!

Oh my goodness, you are all so supportive, it means so much to me!!!! I love you girls :)

Well day one went pretty good, I had half an apple + half an apple, but then at dinner time my mam made me eat so I had prawns (which I thought were kind of white lol) and the lowest cal thing we had. Also I burnt 179cals on the treadmill.

Today was yellow day and didnt go so well. I went out first thing this morning with friends and didnt eat anything until about 6pm when they bought chips and made me eat cos I hadnt eaten all day. But I had only a few, it was barely half a plate, and chips are kind of yellow (haha oh goodness). Then when I got back I had a banana about 8pm... Sooo I hope I havent gained because of that :/ Also I havent managed to work out today cos Ive been out all day but I have been kinda active...

Tomorrow Im having a day off the diet because Im going to a sleepover and we are having chinese food (aargh) so I will work out in the day tomorrow, and not eat anything until Im at my friends, then only eat a little and as low cal as possible. Then back on the rainbow wagon saturday.

I just found out my best friend might not be able to make my party :'( Im absolutely gutted. It wont be the same if she isnt there :(

Rainbow

I am having a party for my birthday and I am so excited... This means I most definitely need to lose weight by then. I want to be 120lbs at least.

I am going to try the Rainbow Diet (Everyday is a different colour, google it xx)

So tomorrow is my first day and its WHITE:
Breakfast: 1/2 apple
Lunch: 1/2 apple
Dinner: 1 cucumber

This is going to be so hard, I have been eating like a pig lately but now is the time to scream STOP!

I want to be the thinnest at my party. I want to be the thinnest. Full stop.

If anyone wants to join me I am starting tomorrow, and Im not doing the fast day so this is a 6 day plan instead of 7.

Support would be appreciated sooooooooooooo much. I am so off track lately :(

Im Back

Oh my goodness, I honestly thought I had lost my blog then, but turns out I was logging in with the wrong email haha...

So I went on holidays for a week, and ate like a pig. Three meals a day: cooked breakfasts, bacon rolls, burgers, chips, pizzas, ice cream etc etc. I come home and weigh and I am 133 lbs. Seriously, WTF????! Of course I am over the moon, but... HOW? It doesnt make sense! How can I eat loads and not gain, but when I do all I can to lose it always goes terribly wrong and I end up bigger than before?! :/

Anyway, since Ive been home I havent been calorie counting, just trying to eat little, never finishing anything. I am 131.5lbs today. But I feel loads bigger :( I think I need to start counting again...

Im thinking a lot today.

1. About uni and living arrangements. I planned to live at home this year because I had such a shit time last year, but now Im thinking Im gna be really out of the loop when it comes to night life etc because I will be coming home everyday. But if I couldnt live on my own last year, I dont want the same thing to happen again this year :/

2. I turn 21 this year, and still have no plans. I want to do something because Im only gna have one 21st birthday, but what could I do?